2003-07-09 - 4:36 p.m.
You know how they all say those love songs are so wonderfully cliched and stereotypical that they make people want someone of their own, to love and to hold (sorry, couldn't resist quoting one of the said cheesy songs)?
Not me. The more I hear those "oooh can't live without your love", I end up feeling scared. I think that I don't want to depend on someone so much. I'm afraid what will happen if they went away. I'm afraid of what I should do given the fact that someone who is attractive is attracted to me (as if that would ever happen - have only been successful in capturing the attention of Ryan and Joseph so far), I would totally screw up.
What if a decent guy whom I liked back liked me? What would I do? I have been single all 15 years of my life -okay, 16 next week.. no wait, went on a few dates in grade 8... but that's besides the point- and I have no idea what I would do.
Call me chicken, but all these songs about heartbreak, lovesickness, infatuation, desire, they all scare me senseless. Why do people make so many songs about the topic LUV (tm)?
Maybe life is about love and passion. As I have lived a mere 15 years, I wouldn't know. But what scares me more is lovesickness with a country twang. And even further on the scare scale are songs about animal instinct and libido.
Unfortunately, the radios here always seem to pop on with a little Justin Timberlake or Avril Lavigne. They seem to haunt me.
Adding insult to injury, Pirates of the Carribean came out today. Am still in quarantine. Think I'm going to see it more for Johnny Depp than Orlando Bloom. To quote Keira Knightley, "I [think I'm going to] be lynched by the little blonde mob."
